Today....

...  I'm craving something new these days beside Mexican.  Now it's waffles from the huddle house with peanut butter... I don't think theirs  are normal peanut butter either... It's good... But while I was there a man with salt hair, no pepper... He looked slightly younger than 50, but I'm not always the greatest at guessing age, you know?... 

He really caught my eye.. Well dressed n a causal way clean and short nails... No ring.. Drove a big green truck that somebody had wrote " wash me" with their finger... We had only a slight nod and a smile hello at each other... Anyway something about him stayed with me... So now I've took the meds the doc gave me... & hopefully to dreamland with sweet smiles and hotties everywhere.... Lol!

Sometimes, don't you wonder what it is about a certain stranger that stays with you long after there gone?... 

Late night thoughts...

As I sit here with my furry friend that follows my every step... I'm sure she's wondering why I haven't gone back to bed yet, the truth is I can't sleep... So I think about life instead... You ever just have random thoughts, that appear to go somewhere after all?... First I was thinking.... Kids- do they ever really grasp how much I love them? I mean I have great parents and of course I know they love me, I want be forgetting anytime soon either since I'm sick and they are doing everything for my kids right now-- I depend on them-- just like mine depend on me to do what I do for them.

 You know it's strange sometimes to think about time and how it disappears from one day into the next. Before u know it u are celebrating your daughters 14th birthday... And your son  Is already 15! Wow!... It's no longer barbies and hot wheels... It's shopping and drivers licence... They grow up so fast... Sometimes you wish u could just slow it down... Travel in slow motion... I'm unsure if I like these late night pondering sessions but what else is there ? when u watched all the tv u can stand, read played games oh and watched a movie....sweet dreams to all

Online Dating?

Online Dating? What is online dating? and what is its purpose? A few good men? Not here, and if there are a few none of them are free...in other words all the good ones around here have been snapped up ....we women know a good man when we see one...well ...most of the time.
Some reasons I have found for online dating... number one take it from me, even though you can be happy while getting a divorce, yes I said happy, its still stressful and lonely at certain times, even when your kids are around and a room full of people. Its a different kind of lonely, a different feeling. weather that feel comes from a private smile from the one your with or just the barest touch of the finger while in the kitchen. Or just when someone calls you a pet name. Divorce is hard no matter what. Even if you have good people on your side and people who love you. Online Dating? Sometimes its easy to talk to a stranger. But you should always be careful of online weird people. That's what we tell our kids, right? How many strangers can you talk to in one night? According to a friend of mine, quiet a few. LOL!! I guess by now you are wondering if I am checking out the online dating sites? The answer is yes!! For reasons Ive already mentioned and then some...don't worry we will get there. You wonder if your ideal man is out there looking for his princess. I am looking for my prince...and I know again that God has my back and if i haven't found him yet its a good chance he's not ready for me yet! That being said, we humans want to help God and hurry. I personally am wondering why I'm in a hurry to be happy!!! Really I'm already happy I just want to be able to share that happiness with another person, besides we all want to be loved!!! Thats what I want to be loved by a man...does he have to be a prince? Not really, but he just needs prince like ways..a gentleman, a hero. In my eyes...I want love. The kind you hear about in a romance novel, or see on TV. personally I don't think that's to far fetched, besides the creators have to have something to base their ideas on... more about online dating...tomorrow...         PS...for those of you who know me or have read my blog before you should know I always write from my heart, if you cry or smile when you read any of my words, please know I did the same while writing them...until tomorrow...

Hello World...its been a while...

Hello World!!! Long time no write....did you miss me? I think...I know I missed you...I have a lot to catch my readers up on...whew! I cant remember the last time we talked. So I will just hit the high spots for you and if you want to know more...just ask!
Lets start by praising God! Besides thats the best way to start the day anyway...even if you are reading this at night. God has healed my baby of that dirty word...cancer..not once but twice..and while the doctors don't say, "yes shes in remission," and say instead that shes not totally out of the woods yet. I know that God is in control and still on the throne. So in my mind she is healed. Why worry when you dont have to right?
also since the last time I wrote, when I wrote that I had a husband I loved, well I guess you might say I fell out of love..or maybe somehow we just couldn't make it work. That's sad to say but the truth, for me it has been better this way. You've heard of people say they are better apart. Well I think we are, but guess what I am still a happy and positive girl, my kids are happy and healthy...what more do i need?...well we will get to that...I don't need but you know we always want what we don't have...its human nature. Its because we are crazy!! LOL!! just kidding...well partly kidding anyway...I still have my Mary Kay biz. and a few other things i find to fill my time.. By the Way, to those of you who are in a marriage you don't love, just remember life is too short to be unhappy...and you can make it, girls you don't need a man to make you happy. And men, happiness comes from within. Now I'm not telling you to go out and divorce your spouse. I'm telling you to be happy no matter what the situation...you know why? Because God always has your back....Even if your friends don't...

M Borders: Pity Party Anyone?!

M Borders: Pity Party Anyone?!: "I'm just going to get straight to the point tonight and ask, how many pity parties does one have to have in a day to feel normal?! Or as clo..."

Pity Party Anyone?!

I'm just going to get straight to the point tonight and ask, how many pity parties does one have to have in a day to feel normal?! Or as close to normal as one gets. Is anybody ever really normal? What is normal exactly?? I'm also sure that facebook-ers get tired of hearing how (I) feel!! Sometimes it feels the only way to get my frustration out is to vent it! Our (our in general) husbands prolly wonder why in the world must we cry over....well that's just it...i dont know why i gotta cry so much today!! Maybe its just backed up!! You know like no tears in a while! Either way I feel like im looking for a fight- if thats what you call it- ive just got to bite someones head off to feel better! i guess thats the way of women, and most of all i hate feeling this way. i dont think anybody wakes up and saids, hummm...i think i will be a grouch today. Nope, I'm mostly a cheery person. I seriously hope i wake up tomorrow in my (normal) cheery mood! I know my husband and kids would be happy if i did!!! Goodnight all, and sweet dreams, and hopefully i wake up to (normal) tomorrow!!
Ps...Happy Independence Day!!!

The pros of eating in on vacation.....

Hello again...wow this is two days straight...I was just about to take an evening nap, because it takes a lot of energy to walk down and play in the sand and sun and to be a beach bum, then I decided I had something to say! I want to hear your pros and cons of eating in on vacation, while your thinking I will tell you mine. Tonight we had taco salad, and left-overs from last two nights. Spaghetti, hamburgers, and a few extras. I'm sure we have saved some money with buying groceries when we got here. Enough to last all week- (im not saying we haven't been back to get a few things). If I had went out to eat, I would have needed to get dressed and while swim wear is allowed in restaurants, its not my cup of tea. I'm more of a pj girl!!! I know I would never wear my swimsuit to Walmart at home. Although I did wear my pj pants one night to Walmart, they were snowman, you think anybody noticed?...lol! Another pro is, you can please picky eaters without it costing an arm and a leg, and if they change their mind well...it still want cost you and arm and leg, more than once because you already paid it at the grocery store. The tv is on any channel, or not if you prefer, conversation is good as you want it to be, without the smell of things your picky eater doesn't like but most of all its just your family and your pj's!! lol!!