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Friday, April 29, 2011

why losing weight is so hard...

#1 Nothing in life is never easy. If it was easy to lose weight nobody would be fluffy we would all be skinny and be supermodels. After all its not like we want to be fluffy...well I don't know a little fluff is good. Anyway...
#2 You have to be in the right frame of mind. It's hard to get there sometimes because its not as if you are really going to lose enough weight (and not gain it back) in two weeks with some wonderful pill or a drink. Not me anyway. No for me its a life changing experience. Why should we have to change our life? All for losing weight!
#3 When you are in a situation that's not remotely close to normal, like say you have one child at home and the other one has a home away from home (at CHOA) you cant be in two places at once. I'm not a cartoon and cant split myself down the middle. But if i were...no that's another story for another time.
# 4 Being a comfort eater is never good...if I'm stressed I'm eating, if I'm tired and want to go to bed and can't I eat instead. Food is wonderful. If its used the right way, Eat to Live not Live to Eat! A wise person once told me that. When I use food for comfort it only last a short time, that's why it's time to change my way of thinking.
# 5 Speaking of unusual circumstances the people at CHOA are so wonderful and the volunteers are also wonderful, they really think of the families here. Bringing breakfast some days or donuts or lunch or supper. It's really hard to turn away and just say no!  And our wonderful family and our preacher that said I'm coming to see you guys can I bring you something to eat? Today It's Zaxbys. Yes I'm eating. Its not chicken its cheddar bites, just not mine and Sarah's, I'm eating only mine. And lots of water. Thats a start right?!  I can do it!! Always remembering that its not easy its something you have to work at and the reward will be great!  Tune in next time for the positive side of losing weight!!

My second day on my diet...well almost...

Yesterday was going to be the day I changed my life!! I got up and was real gung-oh, I took my shower and got ready for my day! I was really gonna do amazing things...I fixed myself a diet coke because I really need my caffeine and my fizz first thing in the morning. I was doing good with my diet coke and fiber one bar. Then Sarah ask if I would warm the pizza she had the previous night...that's when things started to go bad. I thought well just a bite- besides its just bread and cheese, and the sauce I added was free on the weight watchers plan. And if you have ever watched and heard how the stars lose weight they say chocolate everyday is good for you. Is it in the form of chocolate cake?? Hummm...I wonder? Besides I didn't need that chocolate cake around for another day to look at! I call that thinking ahead! LOL!! You know what i need after chocolate cake something salty, just to get the sweet out of my mouth!! So by now I'm guessing you know it went down hill after that second bite of pizza because its salty...on the upside of my first day I did drink water for the rest of the day and lots of it!! That's a plus right?? Now keep in mind I didn't say my eating was good for the rest of the day...however today is a whole new day!! And I've started it just right...with a diet coke and a fiber one bar...

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

would you follow me?...

Just a question..would you follow me? why? Have you ever seen the movie Julie and Juliet?? I have only watched half of it, and can never seem to pick up where I left off. However I got the part about Julie blogging about cooking, so I'm asking you if you would follow me and my weight loss? Don't worry you haven't missed anything. Mom said the other day, "I thought you were going on a diet today?" I said, "I was but I forgot." How in the world can you forget you were going on a diet? Besides It's more than going on a diet its a life changing plan. So I was thinking If I go on a life changing experience and blog about it I will have lots of ears wanting to know if it works. I can also vent on bad days, and I know there will be bad days, everybody has them. Even if they don't admit it. I know it will be hard, its always hard here in the hospital, because I don't want to do anything but eat. Yep I'm a comfort eater. Its terrible. So I'm asking if you will follow me? Be sure and post your comments...don't be afraid, honey if I can do it you can.

...ambulance ride anyone??

Our first ambulance ride..(well that we remember). We (Sarah and I) are having a vacation, thats what I'm  telling myself this week. LOL! Besides all I have to do is close my eyes and picture myself on the beach... so we are at scottish rite, our home away from home, and we need to get to Egleston for radiation treatment. To do that,  they transport you aka ambulance ride.
We climb in the back, I climb Sarah is on the stretcher, no walking or climbing required! You know me, well some of you do, and I am not letting my child ride in the back by herself with a stranger! Just because he is wearing a uniform with his name on it! ...Or so i thought! About half way to the other hospital, I said, "Sarah how are you making it?" "I'm fine mama." I'm thinking of course you are, you can see out the window...and I'm thinking oh my gosh could we please hurry and get there I think I'm gonna be sick! I never did throw up...and I'm so glad, that would have been embarrassing!! Needless to say I was so glad when i could put my feet on the ground! And as it turns out I did let Sarah ride in the back by herself with just the man in uniform with his name on it. Besides I had nothing to worry about, because by the time we got back Sarah had a new buddy and he knew all about our family!! Sarah told him, "I love to talk." I said, " her mom does too," I'm just glad when I rode shotgun I didn't turn into a backseat driver...LOL!

Saturday, April 16, 2011

To all my prayer warriors...believing in the power of prayer...

Hello to All, I assume someone is actually reading this..Sarah's day started kinda rough, but i can happily say i think we are gonna end this day on a good note. Her grandparents and preacher and his wife came. I really had to be on my best behavior at that time...LOL! Anyway my mom brought her some Micky D's and she ate that then ask for a coke- not that she drank it all. Its a start anyway. She even talked to everybody and called her friends on the phone today. So i know she is feeling better. I know its gonna be one day at a time and will take a lot of time and time in hospital to get her well, but that's OK we (she) has fought cancer and won before with God's help and i know she will do it again! I am willing to do whatever it takes. I believe in the power of prayer and God's healing power! Goodnight all!!

Friday, April 15, 2011

R U all Ears?...

I need to vent...Sarah started running a fever last night, we came to the hospital to find out she was dehydrated and low white blood counts, upset stomach..the typical reaction to chemo. It was 5am when we finally got a room, by that time i had been up 24hours.  And couldn't wait to lay my head on my pillow even if i couldn't have my own bed. Anyway today has been rather trying because Sarah bless her feels terrible and of course I'd rather be at home or on PCB, that would be even better. However I am willing to do whatever it takes for her and my family, always!! So I'm just asking you to pray for me and my family! Hopefully Sarah's counts will come up and i will find the rest of my patience because i usually have plenty in leeps and bounds, but at the same time I am human...

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

day 3 of chemo..

 Both mom and myself over slept this morning. Traffic was bad and we were 15 minutes late today, making me wonder am I going to be 15 minutes late all day?! in spite of all that, we still managed to get Rich to school on time today. I am happy to say Sarah is still doing well..and yes I'm still afraid to say, "no she is not sick." because I'm afraid then she will be. However i think she is doing well, she came in this morning after being accessed and said, "can i go back to my game now?" So she pulls her pole behind her, the only time she looks like she don't feel good is when you say, " Sarah we really need to start on your homework." Thats when she grumbles and immediately goes down hill. LOL!! But lets face it...homework is like housework nobody wants to do it!!  Now she is eating extreme sour strips while i myself is eating way more calories than i could possibly need!! What is it about hospitals that make you want to eat anyway??  The hospital itself has an exercise room, but its so hard to chose to workout when eating a chocolate chip cookie (which is bad for your hips) seems so much more fun. and chocolate is every girls friend to a bad day, not that I'm having a bad day because I'm not. Ever heard the term if mama aint happy nobody's happy. i think same goes for your kids, i mean how could any parent be happy if their kids are not?

If I Were...

If I were...a cat..i would climb trees in the early morning light...If I were a bird i would sing to my babies while my voice carried though the night. If I were a tree my branches would sway in the wind...If i were the sun..i would shine down on you with warmth for all the day through. If I was water..I would give life to all weeds, and hydrate all flowers i could see. If i were a father..I would work to provide for you and for me. If I were a nurse... I would wear a stethoscope and listen to your heart beat and give shots with ease. If I were a beautician..u could sit in my chair and wear a black cape while your worries faded away. If I were a musician..i would play your favorite song. If I were a magician..i would pull rabbits out of hats while spinning plates and children laughed. If I were a mom...I would make you breakfast and wipe your nose, while washing your clothes. I would clean your room and wonder what surprise I would find. We would dance in the rain and swim in the summer and have snowball fights in the winter...I would dry your eyes and give hugs real tight with a kiss goodnight...yes..I'm so proud to be your mom...

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

day 2 of chemo..

At 15 til 7 i drag myself out of bed, and trust me when i say it was hard because i wanted to sleep til lunch or at least close to it. Took Rich to school, came home got ready for 2nd day in Atl. (this week anyway).  I could almost say Sarah was bright eyed and bushy tail, you have heard that before right? Anyway i fixed her some breakfast and she ate it..kinda surprised me, and when somebody said is she sick, i want to say no- but im afraid because what if i say no shes not sick then she gets sick..anyway she is now hooked up to the iv poll and pushing it around while she plays games, so trust me when i say the chemo as of now is not slowing her down none. which is great because she's got it in her mind she's going to dance class tonight when she gets home..and im thinking whew..when can i get a nap in?! LOL!

Friends...

What is a Friend? What makes a Friend a Friend? Are you a Friend? I want to tell you what i think a Friend is....Friends are Fabulous and are always around when you need them, and sometimes when you think you don't.  Friends are Reasonable when maybe you cant find any reason...to believe...Friends are Important and are always there in times of trouble. Friends are never Envious of you, especially when times are troublesome, because most have troubles of their own. Friends are always Nice and bring sunshine on a cloudy day, even if its just with a phone call, because your never to far away. Friends sometimes bring Drama to an ordinary day...and sometimes you have So many wonderful Friends you might wonder how you got so lucky!! Don't forget that Friends come in many forms...a sister, a mother, a pet, a father, a brother, grandparents, husband or wife, and certainly not last... God. He is always there even when we may not see, he is in the air we breathe, with his arms wrapped around you and me. He is there to dry our tears and rid us of our fears, and he loves us unconditionally. Even when there are times we don't deserve his love and understanding... as you may have already figured out by now i am truly blessed with awesome Friends in my life.